How do I start...?
We've been hiding from reality, all of us.
Hoping that it'd just suddenly all get better one day
Or that we'd just wait it out
It has been years...
Numerous years...
It has snowballed... and now showed hints
that it potentially could get out of hand.,,
And now we have to face it, for better or for worse...
But I cannot bring myself to this
Am I really making the right decision?
Is it because the textbook says so?
Is this the best decision for her?
Did I miss out important details that could send all this into an awry?
Did I really downplay or exaggerate the situation?
How will the medication affect her?
Will the infamous side effects show?
Will it affect our lives later on?
Will we ever go back to normal?
Will anything bad happen?
I have so many questions running through my head...
I don't trust anyone else to make the final decision...
But can my decisions be trusted?
I feel like I can't trust myself either...
What gives me the right to make that decision?
Is it really the right time?
Is it really the right decision?
Is it... really the only way to go about it?
