random art

 

random doodling

 

Drawing again after so many years

 

meh

received this snapshot in my job chat group.

Wah.

If you just look at the numbers like that, it almost seem like we're doing quite well as compared to most other hospitals.

BUT

What about nurse to patient ratios?

No one bothered to look at that number.

Bad mistake.

Really bad.

So what if you have 1000 patients. If you have 250 nurses, one nurse can care for 4 patients. Perfect.

So what if you have 500 patients. If you only got 50 nurses, one nurse takes care of 10 patients. You will not be able to remember what the heck patient had before that relates to his or her current condition. You won't have the brain capacity to care whether the patient has been going hungry unnecessarily and that you may need to go fight the doctor that ordered NBM like they've gone zen and no longer need food.

You won't have time to care for your patients with patience and love because you're fighting for time to do basic care for the next one lying beside. And what about that one that is yelling at the back because he or she got so much needs and wants that we have no time to meet and cater to all of them?

And ten is almost like the average number of patients per Nurse these days... NETT. Not total per shift.

You see the difference?

We don't care how many patients there are, actually. 

We care about how many patients we each have to care for.

Period.

feeling a little out of place

Was scrolling through Facebook and curiously clicked on the profile pages of my colleagues.

Needless to say, all the Doctors came from reputable schools. Duh. They're the ones with straight As.

Then I realised a lot of the seniors also came from reputable school too. Hwa Chong, Raffles, NJC, River Valley, Nanyang...

I looked back at my profile.

Wow

Ok.

Growing up I always had this sense of pride when I compared myself to people and they are from neighborhood schools. 

As if I am from a different level.

Lol.

Such a bitch.

And those from RI and HCI probably think the same of people like me.

Idk man. There probably are people that don't bother maybe.

But idk why now I still have this sense of... inferiority almost.

Not very good for my mental health huh. But I can't seem to help it.

Can't help but wonder if it's part of the reason why I don't function as well as my colleagues.

Why I am not as outspoken and confident.

But looking back, I have got school mates that are outspoken and confident...

So i guess the problem just lies with me.

Hah.

Ystd was so busy with my shift I didn't get to go for break.

Today I took MC

Cuz of this weird pulling pain down my shoulder to the 4th and 5th fingers both sides. Took some Nsaids and Vitamin B. Hope it helps.

3rd time successful

Yay, middle aged indian male.

IV 22G successful.

No one was with me.

Yay...?

2nd time successful

2nd time successful IV insertion. 

Now in a 70+ year old elderly. 

But he's got good veins. 

But maybe cuz I had Dr KJ behind me so I was kinda more relaxed.

Erm.

Anyways.

It counts 🤣

One happy thing today~ 😊😊😊