2025年2月4日

Facing the monster

 How do I start...?

We've been hiding from reality, all of us.

Hoping that it'd just suddenly all get better one day

Or that we'd just wait it out

It has been years...

Numerous years...

It has snowballed... and now showed hints 

that it potentially could get out of hand.,,

And now we have to face it, for better or for worse...

But I cannot bring myself to this

Am I really making the right decision? 

Is it because the textbook says so? 

Is this the best decision for her?

Did I miss out important details that could send all this into an awry?

Did I really downplay or exaggerate the situation?

How will the medication affect her? 

Will the infamous side effects show?

Will it affect our lives later on?

Will we ever go back to normal?

Will anything bad happen?

I have so many questions running through my head...

I don't trust anyone else to make the final decision...

But can my decisions be trusted?

I feel like I can't trust myself either...

What gives me the right to make that decision?

Is it really the right time?

Is it really the right decision?

Is it... really the only way to go about it?

2024年10月28日

Jeju Day 4 [24/10/24]

Breakfast buffet at 아이진호텔
Tour bus! Ft. Peter Kim (our tour guide)
It was such a large group! 35ppl!
Rainbow at the foot of the Cheonjiyeon waterfall!
Touching the ears of Stone 하르방 = 🤑 Money 💰 
绝路 HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
nice bridge
walking towards the next location 
Oedollgae
Long legs pose hahaha 
Pretty purple daisies 
Peter telling us our route today
Jusangjeollidae
passing by this interesting starbucks
Lunch! Raw abalone is too chewy for my liking... Otherwise it was a good lunch!
Osulloc green tea field 
Tea time ~
starting our hike along Eoseungsaengak Trail up Hallasan 
30min of stairs is NO JOKE
Reached!!
Our tour group 
Dinner at Dongmun Traditional Market
Grilled pork roll with cabbage in the middle. Yumz!
Corn dog, kimari
Tangerine tteok and Omegi tteok 
Took the public bus back to the hotel afterwards using our T-money card (tap on going up and down!)